Besides knowing that diabetics shouldn't eat sugar (ahem), and that they test their blood sugars and take lots of shots (eeeewwww), non-diabetics associate diabetics with something else: orange juice. As in, low blood sugar = orange juice. For diabetics, a low blood sugar might also = glucose tabs. Now, in both regards I am not (or, was not) a "normal" diabetic.
I grew up with an utter loathing of orange juice. Utter. It is only now, in my 28th year, that I have begun to use it to treat lows. I thank the nice family I tutored for for getting me acclimated to this drink. Each Tuesday and Thursday, the mother would serve the two kids and I a tray of healthy snacks and glasses of orange juice. I would force myself to chug it down and gradually, over the course of 16 weeks, I learned to tolerate it. I am thankful, becuase I can no longer tolerate apple juice, my juice of choice. 17 years of treating lows with apple juice has resulted in a gag reflex. Even brand-name apple juice, like Juicy-Juice, doesn't do it. And the Walmart brand, a dollar cheaper but alas, more like urine than juice, certainly doesn't do it. And so for the first time in my life I am buying Minute Maid and making difficult choices, like "Low Pulp" or "No Pulp." Can I force myself to handle "High Pulp" for its Calcium Enriched goodness? (Answer, "NO". Low Pulp is pulpy enough.)
And then there are those glucose tabs. When I was diagnosed they came -- as far as I know -- in one flavor. You've got it: orange. And I don't do orange (even now -- OJ, okay, orange anything-else no way). But because of the I-can't-stand-apple-juice turn-of-events, I have lately found myself in the glucose tab aisle. There's watermelon and grape and English toffee and tropical fruit. But I still find that being the glucose tab kind of diabetic is a struggle, because I am not a fan of chalk. And although the English toffee tabs do taste like English toffee, it's a sweet explosion that makes my teeth hurt and that makes me grimace as I swallow the disentegrating tongue-coating stuff. OJ it is.
It's a good thing I'm finding Apple Juice alternatives, because I've been low A LOT these last few days. I didn't break 100 until 5 pm on Thursday (where I finally rebounded to a lovely 303. Ahem.) I had three juices in the course of 4 hours. Yesterday I was 47. And I haven't been above 100 today. All because I've altered my morning basals to try and stave off the peak-to-nader pattern that plagued me all summer and continues to plague me now.
This is a problem, because my low symptoms are mimicking the anxiety I have had all week: wake up with racing heart and near tears. The shakes. Definite stomach issues. A persistent headache, mornign till night? Is it just anxiety? The fact that I haven't been on my thyroid or depression meds for a good months (waiting for the doctor's appt Friday for new scripts)? A combo? And what's with the lows? Anyone's guess at this point. I'm actually looking forward to the endo appointment to find out.